Happy Birthday little brother. Today you would have been 23 years old. But you are now forever 21. I miss you, I sit and think about all the things you would do or or say. I want to put funny balloons on your memorial site but you won’t be there to laugh at it or feel embarrassed about me getting you toddler balloons for you. I would have topped it off with some PAW patrol cupcakes. 😂
You would have been so embarrassed but would have laughed and probably say something like “PAW patrol is the S#!T ” That was who you were, headstrong, stubborn, and goofy. You knew how to go with a bad situation and make it funny.Â
It is the most depressed people who are the funniest and lovable. And now you are in heaven looking younger than ever and watching down on us. I just wish heaven had visiting hours so I could see you again. I hope you are not in pain. I think I’m handling this okay, I think! I only had a nightmare and I got only 3 hours of sleep a total of 5 hours in the past 2 days. But I don’t see you around.
Though the past week I kept feeling someone kicking my bed (you’re the buttface that would do that just to be annoying). Or I would feel someone sitting on my bed next to me. Is that you? Are you trying to answer all of my unanswered questions? Letting me know you are okay? You’re not in pain? You are wishing you were back here on earth.Â
Your family miss you so much. Your mom is trying her best to keep it all together for the girls and you but I know it gets hard for her some days. I plan on calling her and checking on her and your sisters. It’s crazy that we said jokingly that we would always look out for each other’s family if something ever happened to one of us and little did I think I didn’t lose you to combat but I lost you to you. That’s the part I can’t seem to get past, I lost Moran to Moran. I just can’t accept it nor am I ready to accept it. Not without a reason why? But till then happy birthday little bro and battle, another year has passed and you still look better than I ever did at 23. Love you man.
-Another broken soul of 08/18/22