Good morning everyone I hope you’re having a good day. As for me, my day started off good but life once again got involved. My mind is racing and I just wanna lay down. I’m kind of afraid of what that means. Does it mean my depression kicking in again? Does it mean I’m losing the will to fight? I never really know how to handle moments like this. Part of me wants to start doing what I wanna do and making the day as productive as possible. The other side of me feels like what’s the point, you’re going to fail. But I know that’s the depression talking and I know that I am capable of being all that I can be and all that I want to be.
For those of you who suffer from mental illness remember that our brains is not always right, and our thoughts are not always right. They say to think with your mind and not with your heart, but I think that’s what’s different for people like us. We have to think with our hearts because our heart is still attached to the things we enjoy, the people we love, and the goals we have for ourselves. And our mind is actually our demons. It is the one that tells us the negative point of view. And it’s not our mind’s fault, it’s a protective mechanism. Our brain wants to protect us from stress, pain and hurt. In return, it sets our standards low, and cuts us away from the world. But we have to realize that with every passing day if we allow our brain or minds to control our every move, we will never know what we are capable of. As parents go to work every day, we think of ways that we can provide for our family, and give them a better life. Yes, that includes bills but it also includes buying gifts, clothes for our children, and a better car for them to ride in. Our heart is what makes us have to go to work and recognize the importance of work. Our mind does the work. So I guess it’s not all wrong to think with your heart.
Today I plan on completing five card videos and I know that if I actually get it done, I will feel so proud of myself. I have made the necessary moves that I need to accomplish my goal. All of these things I plan on doing are with my heart. My, goal of wanting to grow my channel is to not only accomplish my goal of becoming a professional card maker, but also to create a community that helps each other with mental health, grief, and challenges. I feel that my purpose in this world is to help others. If I can’t accomplish that then, what am I here for? This is just a part of my life that I have to successfully accomplish. I feel that I failed my goal as a soldier, and I feel like I am not the best mother that I can be (as I think all parents normally feel, we just want to be the best) I feel like I can be doing so much more for them. But I’m not hard on myself about that because I do take steps in my motherhood journey. When something comes to mind that I feel that I should be doing, I take steps to do it. That is one of the things that Moran was very strong-hearted about, good mothers! I have to admit it looks like I’m going to accomplish completing 2023 without any deaths so that’s a positive I guess.
Well, let me start my day give myself one hour to reset my mind then I will get to work. Making these videos, when people subscribe to me and like my videos and watch my videos it brings me so much joy. But I don’t want to learn to overdo it. I just want to continue to give people what they enjoy and content that brings them inspiration, joy, and Hope. I hope you guys have a good day today, and never forget you are beautiful, you matter, and your creation is the art of this world.